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Good morning! 01-01-13 5:00AM Time to clean up the mess. Just done washing dishes and eating a slice of chocolate cherry torte. What a great morning! Will have a cup or two of coffee. Breakfast to the max while everybody else at home is sleeping. It's already 10am and now I'm just sitting here after eating another bowl of fruit salad. [cont..] 2:17PM Earlier we stroll around Antipolo to find an open grocery store. Most of the main stores are closed. Luckily when we went to SM Hypermarket, only 7mins left before it opened. So there, we quickly got what we needed and headed back home. We were with the three cutie kids, Thea, Chloe and Jasly. I cooked Pancit Canton. I hope everybody will like it. After my cooking session, I just stayed upstairs with kids. Tweeting, playing pc games, etc..while my relatives and visitors were enjoying videoke downstairs.. I'm a bit sleepy now. I might be too early to sleep, but I wanna rest...so dito muna. I will try to write mo...

Happy New Year! I'm starting composing this while I'm here everyone is comfort at, comfort room. Hihihi! The time is around 7pm. Five hours to go before 2013. I'm currently emptying my stomach. Haha! If you know what I mean. [cont..]Now, here upstairs with kids, just done changing their clothes, polka dots. And me, I tweeted this earlier, haha.. I am wearing a polka dot undie. The two kids are busy watching Despicable Me, for the nth time. They always watch it as if that is the first time they do. Videoke sessions downstairs. Ah wait! Chloe is calling me, she wants me to prepare a milk in her feeding bottle.. [cont..] Time check - 8:39pm. I'm a bit sleepy I still want to stay up until 12mn. I can hear some firecrackers outside. I'm a bit sleepy na talaga... I guess I'll have a nap... zZzzZ...brb [cont..] Okay, Thea and Chloe is already sleeping. And me, still awake. It's past 10pm. Less than 2 hours to go. I'm tweeting and emailing my friends ...

Today is painting day at home. To make our house a little brighter, we paint it light blue. My 3 brothers and my father did it all. It's a good thing to do before new year comes. Rain or Shine - the brand of the paint we use. That reminds me of a PBA team. Haha! Since I am a human with asthma, the first thing to consider when buying a paint, is it should be not nose friendly. I was able to stay inside during the painting session. =) Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Alright! Alright! 2012 is about to end. This year is a year full of blessings for me. I left my beloved first employer IBM, and joined Concur Technologies. I am trying to recall other things that I made my 2012. Haha! Maybe there are too many to put them all on a list. But I must say that the highlight is when I become a Service Administrator in Concur. I had a lot of first times. Most of my friends known me for being KJ sometimes when it comes to team outing or even just simple eat-outs. That is because, I usually don't join them. But when I got into Concur, I started to somehow make it different. I was there when the team went to Resorts World Manila for breakfast and to Tagaytay also for breakfast. I had good attendance in drinking and videoke session even though I am not a drinker. Haha! Another thing was when Concur took care of us during the Moonson phenomenon. We were checked in a hotel because there was no way of going home. I felt how Concur loves their people. When t...

Four days off from work. Stayed at home and spent Christmas with my family. That was so perfect. My two kids and I basically just had dinner at night at around 7pm then went to bed. Kids usually can't stay up longer at night. I told them that Christmas is Jesus Birthday. I don't know if it's awkward, they never mention anything about Santa Claus like a common kid does during Christmas. Well maybe because I didn't tell them bout Santa coz I want JESUS to stick on their mind. ^_^ So there, my siblings had their own business roaming around the compound with friends and my parents were downstairs enjoying the videoke machine with our other relatives. As I mentioned with my previous posts, we are not an ideal family. We don't have intimate relationships but I know that we value each other. We might shout at each other sometimes but we still care. In other words, we are not showy. I always pray for my family that someday GOD's plan will be in place for us.  I gav...

Happy Holidays!  Christmas 2012 is over but we must live it's spirit everyday - peace, love and joy. Christmas is the day when God gave us the best gift ever - His only Son, Jesus Christ. He became human to save us. He died for us to live. Isn't that sweet? Let's not forget that Christmas is all about JESUS!  Happy Birthday Jesus! 

hello my blogger site! I miss you a little. LOL! I was so pretty busy this past few weeks. Got no time writing bout anything that doesn't make sense to others but does to me. Haha! ~lezgow!! What was I busy about these days? MUSIC. I'm just a typical person who loves to listen to songs. I am so a big fan of acoustic music, alternative rock and pop. The artists who are lately occupying my playlist are - Lawson, Boyce Avenue, Maroon5 and James Morrison. I tweet a lot bout these guys. Haha! I actually have their twitter user acounts in my head. I'm just so crazy. While at work, I got my earphone on and have volume to the highest. World is off, music is on. Even on my way home, my earphone is attached to my ear all the time. #musicaddiction Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

One happy morning in the office. Done with my work bu too early to go home. I really love my work, my clients and my crazy officemates. So blessed. So I'm just here vandalizing on the internet wall, LOL. Thank you YouTube! You let me listen to my favorite songs, let me watch the live performances of my favorite artist for free. Hahaha! I don't know who made you, but I wanna say my big thank you to him or to her. 

Kwentuhang nauwi sa pag-alala sa Korean series na Endless Love. Aw! Highschool ako nung mga panahon na yun. Sobrang emotional at tragic talaga ng stories na sinamahan pa nang super drama na theme songs. Nagsimula yan kay Jenny at Johnny ng Endless Love 1 - Autumn in My Heart. At the end pareho pa silang naDeads. Super nakakaiyak talaga. Anyways...ngayon inaalala namin ang mga theme songs nun at hinahanap sa youtube. Iba talaga ang tama sa puso eh. May impact talaga. Hay ganyan talaga ang buhay pag-ibig, hindi lagi masaya, mas okay pa rin pag may iyakan.  Eto ang isa sa mga kanta : http://t.co/Gf4HdVii

Hindi na ko kasing sipag dati sa pagpopost sa blog. This happens when I'm relaxed yet busy with work or something. Balita? Nagkita kami ni Henny at Bhing ~ highschool friends. Enjoyed the puyatan moment. Kumain sa Chicboy at nanood ng MYMP. Bago yun, pumunta kami sa album launch ng Spongecola sa Eastwood. Got the pictures uploaded on my FB. Ayun..masarap lang pagkwentuhan ulet ang mga nakaraan sa buhay estudyante. Yung tawang totoo. Puro jokes at kalokohan. Mas conscious na nga kami sa oras ngayon dahil pare-pareho kaming may trabaho na. Sila yung mga taong kilala ang tunay na ako. Yung simpleng ako. Dahil nga sa public school kami nagtapos, masaya kami sa simpleng buhay lang. Nakakatuwa lang malaman kung ano nang naging buhay namin sa ngayon. Hindi man yun yung gusto namin nung nasa school pa kami ang mahalaga, masaya kami ngayon. Sana nga, makita at makasama ulet namin yung iba naming friends. Kumusta na kaya sila.. Nakaka-excite lang makita kung ano nang hitsura nila ngayo...

i tend not to hold on too much to something or someone who will soon be detached from my life. 

Am I in love? Yeah, always...His name is Jesus... He love me first.... He gave his life to us for us to be saved and have life. He deserve to be loved back a hundred percent.. #JesusLovesUs Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Salamat Lord!! Wala akong boyfriend, hindi kami mayaman pero masaya ako ang buhay. Minsan nakakaramdam ako ng pag-iisa pero nasa isip ko lang yun dahil alam kong lagi kitang kasama. Pwede kitang kausapin kahit anong oras, kahit saan. Ikaw ang higit na nakakatulong sa kin higit kahit kanino pa man. Alam ko Lord, marami akong pagkukulang sayo, marami akong kasalanan at madalas kong hindi nasusunod ang utos mo kaya patawarin mo po ako. Tulungan mo ako, na laging magdesisyon ayon sa kalooban mo. Tulungan mo po akong magkaroon ng mas mahabang pag-unawa at pasensya sa mga tao at pangyayari sa aking paligid. Marami po akong gustong matamo sa buhay ko ngunit higit dun, mas gusto kong mangyari kung ano ang plano mo sa buhay ko Lord. Ikaw ang nakakaalam kung ano ang makabubuti. Salamat rin po Panginoon, dahil hindi buo pa rin ang pamilya ko kahit madalas may pag-aaway na nagaganap. Ikaw na pong bahala sa amin Lord. We love you Lord God. In Jesus Name, Amen.... Sent from my Black...

When people don't like what I like and when I don't like what they're into, who cares? We should not after other's approvals or else we will not be getting any satisfaction. You gotta enjoy what makes your heart jumpy. Sometimes people tend not to express what they really want because they afraid to get negative feedback..

  @ thekatinas   @ desperationband   @ abandonrock   # paglaum   # gloryfall   # SavedFestival2012 It is a success. Worship started at exactly 7pm and finish at around 11:30. I went alone. I enjoyed the night so much. That was my first time to be at MOA Arena. I was sitting at Lower Box 207. I guess everyone had companion except me but that was okay. I was able to focus in worshiping our dear Lord Jesus. Honestly, those Christian bands are just new to me. I researched their music and listened to them from Youtube. No wonder why they were the chosen artists for this year SavedFestival. They all rock!  That was also the first time I heard a Visayan worship song. Paglaum of Cebu got so good composition. Good thing there was English translation of their songs onscreen. They have beautiful voices. About the Abandon, the first foreign artist who hit the stage that night, really did a rock and roll. Their member Justine Engler, made me smile before ...

2nd approved VL Concur 10-26-12 Just got home, 2 hours ago. The sun is hidden by thick clouds. The wind is quiet playing around. There's a storm inside PAR. I haven't heard the latest update bout that. Don't know where its heading to but hopefully it'll leave the PH asap. 'Coz tonight will be a blast. We'll have a party. I will be with the people I don't personally know but we all know someone super special. We'll be gathering in MOA Arena to worship our SaviorJesus Christ. Foreign and local worshipers will be at stage to glorify the real star of the night -- Jesus. We will all say Amen!!! The Katinas, Abandon, Desperation Band, GloryFall and Paglaum. It's the 2nd Year of Saved Festival. Last year was at Smart Araneta. I'm proud to say that it will be my first time to enter MOA. Haha! I'm going there not to stroll around, but to honor the ONLY One! So excited! I should be sleeping by now coz I need to wake up at around 3pm and le...

God wants you to go beyond the normal and surpass what is required of you. Our verse today tells us to exceed the expectations of your boss, to exceed the expectations of your customers. That is the kind of work God blesses. ~ Rick Warren

Parang ilang linggo na rin akong walang bagong posts. Minsan marami akong gustong sabihin pero tinatamad akong isulat. Sabi ko nga hindi rin lahat ng nasa isip dapat sinasabi. May mga bagay na mas magandang nanatili na lang sa isipan. Naks! At ngayon dahil paos ako at pinipilit kong gamutin kong kawalan ko ng boses, type type muna ako dito. Katatapos ko lang gawin ang mga trabaho ko. Mukha naman hindi ako nagkukulang sa pangagailangan ng mga kliyento ko. Ako na, ako na talaga ang masipag na manggagawa ng software company na to. Hahaha! Ano nga pala ang tagalog ng "software". Ang hirap naman sagutin. Pero bahala na. Baka igoogle ko na lang sya next time. hehehe!  Ano pa bang pwedeng sabihin?! Pink ang theme ng windows ko. Marami akong candies dito sa workstation ko. Maraming nakadikit na star stickers sa monitor ko. Meron akong violet na keychain na binigay ng mabuti kong kaibigan na si Ana at galing pa yun ng Malaysia. haha! Baka mamaya may matino na akong maisulat. Minsa...

2:44AM October 13, 2013 Philippines Standard Time. Just got home from Chicboy with my highschool-college bff. I wasn't expecting that MYMP will be performing there. I really love MYMP for their acoustic music and good songs. I admire Chin so much. He is an excellent guitarist blessed with pretty voice. And I was dreaming to have voice like Juris'. She has the instinctive relaxing voice. I never got a chance to watch her singing live when she was still part of the band. Vanessa is MYMP's new female vocalist. She was a finalist from Pop Star Kids with Julianne San Jose. She's also good and has powerful voice like a diva. Bhing and I came past 9PM at Chicboy. There was a band performing at stage. Most of the tables were occupied. Luckily there was one available near the entrance which is quiet far from the stage. I said I want a better place to watch the band. After like 10 mins we transferred to a table nearer the stage. We ate and ordered vodka - antonov. MYMP ca...

Thursday, October 18, 2012     Turn Your Prayers into Conversations by Jon Walker "Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. 'Could you men not keep watch with me for one hour?' he asked Peter." (Matthew 26:40 NIV)           Read this devotional as a prayer: Help me, Lord, to develop a strong prayer life. I know you desire intimacy with me and that you want me to watch with you and pray (Matthew 26:40). Yet I never seem to find the time to pray in a deep, fervent, consistent, persistent way. What draws me to my knees the most is when I have a problem, when I want something from you, when I need your help. I’m flipping through my calendar, stressing with commitments, and you just want to hang out — with me. Help me turn my prayers into conversations with you that keep flowing throughout the day — an on-going communication, where I never say "amen." Keep me close to you, no matter what it takes. I’m no...

Oh yeah! My first ever PTO in Concur 10-12-12. A big thanks to my manager for approving it. I just want to be at home in the first seconds of my 24th natal day. I don't have any plan in mind what to do on the 13th of October, year of our Lord Jesus Christ 2012. No party, as usual. No balloons cause I'm too adult for that. Maybe just food, enough for my family. I don't invite anybody to our house. Another highlight for this day is our meeting of my highschool and college BFF - Bhing. We will meet later tonight somewhere. She will be coming straight from work, but she said yes when I ask her to be with me later. Lot of stories tell her, lot of laughs to expect. I miss her so much. She knows how crazy I am. I'm just so excited. I should've slept right now so I won't be late in seeing her later. But anyway, I have received early 3 happy birthday greetings from my friends - Kaye, Joana, Giro. The common thing about those 3 peeps is they this girl, a noisy girl, t...

i miss my space here....will write some soOn.. kasalanan to ng twitter.. haha! naaaliw akong magtweet ng magtweet.. www.twitter.com/carlaelopre #followme

I am trying to watch a video in my phone but since the internet connection is really bad, I've watched only the first 10 seconds of it. The title is "Super simple plan to journal that can change your entire outlook on life. by KEVIN". Even I wasn't able to watch the whole video, I guess I got the essence of Kevin's message. In making a journal about our walk with faith, we don't have to write great thoughts. What he is simply doing is write 5 things that he can be thankful of at the end of the day. For me, that is a very good idea. What might happen everyday, we will still be able to find things in our lives that we should be grateful about. Thanks Kevin. I'll surely take your advice. #happyMonday Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I tend to cry when I listen so praise and worship songs. Realisations sink in to my mind. We have God who never fails to love us 100 percent. Nothing in this world we can compare how great he is. His love is unending and indescribable. #quietTime I love You, Jesus Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I don't know what else to write. I'm currently on my way home. I had a short bonding moment with my friends. I just got off from office. It's raining so hard. I am inside a jeepney. I don't know if this post will be read by someone in the government, cause I don't really care. CyberCrime Law is a trash. That's it! I don't know what is their intention. If it will make each poor Pinoy rich, go! If it will stop the oceanic flooding go! If it will give shelter to all the homeless go! The point is, it will make any betterment in our nation. We don't need another New Trash Laws. We just need to revise some existing ones and implement them well.. But anyways, nadala lang ako ng emosyon ko. I'm actually sleepy. I always sleep kapag nasa byahe. Kaya lang trip ko lang gamitin ang qwerty pad ng phone ko. Hehehe! Happy Wednesday! Keep Safe all!! Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Sa 7-11 cashier..."Good Evening Ma'am...baka gusto nyo po magdagdag ng chocolates...or any side dish"..(sabay tawa ng onte..haha)...okay lang sana kung pagkain yung binili ko, eh suklay kaya yun O_o. Mukha ba kong kumakain ng suklay? Alam ko mejo matakaw ako pero hindi ako kumakain ng suklay!!! Pasalamat sya nagmamadali ako.. Haha! :) Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Woke up so early in the morning and realized that t'was you I was with in that dream. I hope it was real. That feeling that I was laying at your chest and saying your sweet nothings. Our faces that were so close. I just love the way you called my name. I'm happy enough experiencing being taken care by you even t'was just a dream. #kiLig. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Saturday - Rest Day No plans Biglaang ni-contact ang mga dating officemates na sobrang namimiss ko na. Message here, message there. Call here, call there. I know its raining so hard outside, pero dahil walang magawa I guess its the perfect time to see each other again. Probably someone will not able to join, but still I'm so persistent to see even some of them. Nakakamiss talaga sila. Sa tagal ko sa IBM, sila yung mga piling taong napatunayan kong mga tunay na kaibigan. Love them much! :) Yung iba sa kanila, tulog pa pero nigising ko para sumama. :) Lord sana makasama sila...

My I talk, my friends listen. When I throw a joke, they laugh. When I'm wrong, they bother to correct me. When I'm hungry, we eat together. I love my job because of them. #kulet #baliw #kain #juicy Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Nobody knows me more than God does. Nobody understands me the way God does. I'm just so thankful that we have a faithful God. Even I can't literally hear him when we talk, I know He listens and He cares. Nobody could love me the way He loves me. I hope all people in this world would realize who precious they are in eyes of our Great God. During the times when it seems that fate turns upside down, just put your trust to Our Creator. Believe that His in control. Your faith would surely direct you to the right path. When something goes wrong, that doesn't mean that He forgets you. He is just preparing you for something big. He just wants you to hold to no one else but HIM. Love Jesus. Love Others. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I actually don't the word to describe it all. I'm just happy seeing you. You can make me smile now. I can just be like a stone in a corner, not movin and just watching you. I hope I can talk to you just like a friend so close. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I attended the church service last night at Victory Ortigas. I was like 5 minutes late. The worship had started. As what I expected, no more available seats inside the sanctuary. I stood at the back during the worship and I decided to seat on the overflow area. I was really dizzy just like the last Tuesday service. And I was too hungry. I was thinking to skip the service and find something to eat. I felt kinda guilty. I told myself, "Once a week lang naman to eh, titiisin ko to para kay God at tsaka nakakahiya tumayo at umalis". Hehe!  Sometimes evil was trying to destruct you when he knows that you're in the middle of worshiping Lord God. We just need to always put GOD first even before ourselves. Thinking that He gave his only Son for us to have lives. There's nothing we can possibly do to pay what JESUS did for us. Staying hungry for more than an hour is nothing compare to what HE did on the cross.  Pastor Rico talked about tithing and I'm honestly guilty ...

An inspirational song by Jason Mraz. It's not a new song but I just heard it recently. I love the message and the melody. When I get my new baby (guitar), this will be included in my list. When I look into your eyes It's like watching the night sky Or a beautiful sunrise There's so much they hold And just like them old stars I see that you've come so far To be right where you are How old is your soul? I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up And when you're needing your space To do some navigating I'll be here patiently waiting To see what you find 'Cause even the stars they burn Some even fall to the earth We've got a lot to learn God knows we're worth it No, I won't give up I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use ...

Sinusubukan kong wag mangyari yun. Umiiwas lang akong umasa sa wala. Wala namang problema kung gugustuhin. Hindi ko lang masabi kung bakit ako ganoon. Kelangan ko rin ng totoong salita. Kelangan kong maging sigurado. #milddrama Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Moment comes when I have nothing to say. Just letting everything to happen. Got no plans to follow. Trying not to control. Ah basta... that's it pansit! :)

That feeling when a dream seemed to come in reality the day right after the night I dreamed about it. Not even a 0.01 % of chance came into my mind before that a feeling like this will build. It was really a total null that turned into lil something. And this something that would at least brighten my day. Too much belief of enjoyin' this will not get me attached - fail. <3 Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Sometimes its better to stay unspoken than to say what your mind is bursting and regret it later. Getting the fire back is not always good. Take it as much as you can. Stay calm and don't absorb what others say. And just hope that sooner they will realize how stupid they were, throwing bullets at nowhere. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Ang dami kong ginawa this weekend pero sa bahay lang. Mega-laba ng pants, ang hirap. At dahil umuulan hindi pwedeng hindi ko sila ilalagay sa dryer. Eh may saltik na ang dryer namin. Ayun, nakipagbuyo ba ako sa kanya. Gerbey! After that, bonggang tupi ako ng kabundok na mga damit. From last week na batch pa kasi yung iba. Tapos, nagpaka-nanay ako. Nagpaligo ng dalawang makulit at pinakain sila. Gusto naming mag-mcdo pero anong laban namin sa ulan? Hays! So nanatili kami sa bahay at nilaro lahat ng games sa laptop. Pati ako nakikipagtalo na sa mga bata dahil sa laro. Hindi naman kami makanood ng tv dahil ginagamit nila mama ang tv para sa videoke. Kaya maghapon lang kami sa higaan ng mga chikitings kasama si lappy. Gusto ko rin magsiomai pero wala, nakakatamad talagang lumabas dahil sa ulan. #weekend@home Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I opened my twitter account and the very first tweet I read was:  jesusculture  ‏ @ jesusculture "It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; He will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear...” Deut 31:8  # LivingWords I got my "Our Daily Bread" book and read the message for Sept 12 and it says: ..And from God the Father:"I will never leave you nor forsake you"(Heb. 13:5) --------------------------------- Praise God! God wants us to realize that we're never alone. He is always with us :) "I am with you always, even to the end of the age." (Matt. 20:28)

Serenitea Fort Bonifacio Technology Tower   Serenitea is one of the tea shops introduced to me by friend, Ana. They have lot of branches around the metro like in Ayala Malls, Robinsons Galleria and Greenfield District. Their milk teas and fruit teas are one the bests. I tried their strawberry toffee, Nagasaki Jelly Grass Milk Tea, Okinawa Milk Tea and Cranberry Fruitea. Wow! :) September 13, 2012. Ana and I headed to their newly opened BGC branch to take advantage of their free upsize to jumbo cup promo. We ordered two different flavor each. Each cup contains 1 liter. So we had 2 liters each of cold teas to take.  Cranberry Fruitea and Okinawa Milk Tea Jumbo

Ang pagiging tahimik ng isang tao ay hindi laging kalungkutan ang dahilan. Minsan kailangan din ng oras para sa sarili para sa bagay-bagay na walang makakaunawa kundi ikaw lang. Ang mga bagay na kahit anong gawin mong paliwanag sa iba o sa kaibigan mo ay hindi rin nila maiintindihan. Hindi nila maiintindihan hangga't hindi sila ang nasa mismong sitwasyon mo. Masarap talagang i-share sa kaibigan ang nararamdaman mo, pero kung alam mong lalabas lang sa kabilang tenga nya ang sasabihin mo, maiiging wag na lang.  I pray to HIM and repent for being selfish sometimes and loosing trust to other. The whole world maybe deaf in your struggles but not HIM above. You might not hear HIM responding but He cares.

Sometimes I just wanna be deaf and numb. I just wanna feel and see what reality is giving me. The times when life gives me totally the opposite of what I want. Its an old and an ongoing story of anyone. It doesn't matter when you'd gone the same way before, the feeling would most likely be the same. I would be the same me but I just need to stronger. Life must go on. Nobody can't stop the tick of the clock. I just gotta to take my first step forward. Sometimes life gives me no option. I gotta face what's in there. I can call it a game, a not so fun game. This might not be a pretty part but I know its not the end. Something pretty is ahead. All I need is to bravely walk straight with a solid faith with our God above. Knowing that He's there is more than enough for me to move forward.

I woke up so early today. I usually get up at around 6pm to prepare for work but a loud scream from outside woke me up running downstairs at 4pm. I was wondering who was it and what was going on. I thought it was again a crazy drank man looking for a fight. I immediately went outside to look for my kids. I had traumatic experience with those crazy drank "tam bay" men. My heart was beating so fast. I found Chloe with my mother but not Thea. The screaming man was our neighbour who has brain disorder and I heard that he harmed a person that time. With my heart beating so fast, I walked around our place to see where Thea was. I ended up seeing her infront of a store playing with her cousin. Thank God! I was just so paranoid. And now, I can't close my eyes and go back to sleep. Nagplantsa na lang ako ng checkered kong polo para suotin mamayang pagpasok. :) Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I woke up so early today. I usually get up at around 6pm to prepare for work but a loud scream from outside woke me up running downstairs at 4pm. I was wondering who was it and what was going on. I thought it was again a crazy drank man looking for a fight. I immediately went outside to look for my kids. I had traumatic experience with those crazy drank "tam bay" men. My heart was beating so fast. I found Chloe with my mother but not Thea. The screaming man was our neighbour who has brain disorder and I heard that he harmed a person that time. With my heart beating so fast, I walked around our place to see where Thea was. I ended up seeing her infront of a store playing with her cousin. Thank God! I was just so paranoid. And now, I can't close my eyes and go back to sleep. Nagplantsa na lang ako ng checkered kong polo para suotin mamayang pagpasok. :) Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Masaya ako dahil sa wakas naka-attend na ulit ako ng church service kagabi sa Victory Ortigas. I missed the first weeks of the series "Ikaw, Ako, Tayo". The message focused on how we can take part of building our nation. The book of Nehemiah was used. Nakaka-amaze talaga kung pano magpreach ang mga pastor don. Ang daming jokes pero totoong nangyayari. Nakaka-inspire yung mga stories they shared. The way pastor delivered the message was so effective and easy to understand and really reached the hearts of the people. I can tell how Jesus works in their lives. They are having the same struggles most people are experiencing. The only difference is they are facing those with solid faith with God. They are the living testimony of what can do in one's life and they are dedicating their lives by sharing Jesus to everyone. God bless!! Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

9-11 notes - twin tower terrorist attack - 2nd birthday of my lappy - 2nd town hall of Concur Philippines - back to night shift after 3 weeks of training Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I hate this when I get too sensitive with what people say. It's normal, yes! I just don't like it when I become too much affected of what they say. I often just ignore them, and do what I gotta do. I usually forgive and forget. Even I know that they don't mean to hurt me, there's still a little percentage that they make me hate them. So, I better stop and breath for seconds. I have to hold my emotions and avoid bad results. #justNothing Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Kung iisa-isahin ko ang mga bagay na dapat kong ipagpasalaamat kay Lord, kulang ang buong buhay ko para sabihin lahat. Hindi man ako ang pinakamayamang tao sa buong mundo, pero isa ako sa pinakamasaya. Napagtanto ko at ilang beses ko na ring nasabi na ang pagiging masaya ay hindi pagkakaroon ng mga bagay na inaasam mo ngunit ang maging mapagpasalamat sa mga bagay na pinagkaloob sayo ng Diyos. Nagpag-isip-isip ko din na hindi pala dapat ako nagkukumpara ng sarili ko sa iba. Sinadya ng Diyos na tayo ay magkakaiba. Ginawa nya tayong Unique. Walang sinuman sa mundo ang magkatulad ang buong pagkatao. Dati, ang dami kong gustong gawin, mga bagay na gusto kong magkaroon at mga lugar na gusto kong puntahan. Sa isang banda, nakatulong ang mga yon para mag-aral akong mabuti at magsumikap na humanap ng magandang trabaho. Pero, noong nakilala ko si Lord, parang ang naging tangi kong gusto ko sa buhay ko ay ang makilala sya at mamuhay sa kung ano ang gusto nya sa kin. Magmula noon natuto akong ...

Sabi ko nga, kung ang ugali ng tao ang pagbabasehan ko kung pano ko sila tatratuhin ay baka wala na kong maging kaibigan. Hangga't kaya kong intindihin at palampasahin, kakayanin ko. At nagpapasalamat din ako sa mga kaibigan kong nagtatyaga at umiintindi ng pagkatao ko. Alam ko hindi ako perpekto at hindi ako santo kaya alam ko na may mga tao rin sa paligid ko na hindi ako gusto. Ngunit hindi naman iyon magiging dahilan para hindi ako maging masaya. Sa ingay kong to, minsan pinipili ko na lang tumahimik kaysa magreact lalo kung alam kong wala naman akong sasabihing maganda. Kahit masiyahin ako, tao pa rin akong limitado at may emosyon. May kahinaan rin ako. Ang buhay hindi puro joke. Maraming bagay ang hindi ko alam. May mga usapang hindi ako nakakarelate. Pero may kakilala akong alam kong mahal ako ng buong buo. Siya ang lubos na nakakakilala at nakakaunawa sa kin nang isang daang porsyento. He is the Lord, our God. He always remind me to love other the way I love myself. ...

Maraming tao ang nahihilig sa pagbabasa ng mga series book. Ewan ko ba sa sarili ko kung hindi ako isa sa kanila. Wala lang siguro akong tiyaga. Hindi naman akong tamad na tao, pero hindi ko lang siguro feel. I don't have anything against to those readers. I actually admire them for being patient readers. Yung iba kong kaibigan minsan nakukumbinsi akong magbasa, tulad nung "hunger games" pero isang chapter pa lang, tinamad na akong ituloy. Haha! Pag nababaling akong atensyon ko sa ibang bagay, wala nang lugar ang pagbabasa sa kin. Ang totoo nyan, nakuha ko pang basahin ang Twilight dati,meron akong pdf copy. Eh ayun..hindi ko rin natapos. I told myself once, siguro tyatyagain kong basahin ang series books na yun kapag natapos ko nang basahin ang Bible. I may sound so hypocrite pero yun eh akin lang. Nakasubscribe nga ko sa isang daily bible reading email. Kung tutuusin ay maikli lang yun, pero minsan ay nakakaligtaan ko pang basahin. Kelangan ko lang ng onti pang co...

Saturday, September 08, 2012     "Many of the people scolded him and told him to be quiet. But he shouted even more loudly, 'Son of David, have mercy on me!'" (Mark 10:48 GN) If you're going to make a fresh start with faith in your life, you have to face your fears. Don't let them control you! Fear has an incredible ability to paralyze our potential, to keep us from launching out, to keep us from having faith in our lives. When we choose fear over faith, it makes us skeptical — we're afraid of trying anything new when we're afraid. It makes us selfish — we're afraid to commit to God and to others. It makes us short sighted — we focus on the past and not on the future. Bartimaeus faced a fear that is familiar to many of us — the fear of rejection. He knew that to shout out at Jesus in that crowd wasn't the right thing to do. He knew that people would look down on him for it, but he was desperate. And he knew that Jesus ...

Place: serenitea greenfield Time: gabi na With: nobody Mode: Kinda emo Dear Someone, I thought you're slowly getting me into you. Hays...why am I so like this? Do I miss being into a relationship? I guess this is just an insanity going on when I'm tired and alone. haha! Maybe I'm just longing for someone who would tell his comforting words when I'm wasted. Someone that would make me smile that easy. <BGMUSiC=One Last Cry> #emo-daw Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Bigla ko lang naalala. Gusto ko lang itala sa online notebook na ito. Noong nag-videoke kaming mga S.A. kasama si Janette sa Redbox, sabi nya sa kin "You sound like an American when you sing" at ang sabi nya kay Enzo, "You sound like a British". Oh well! It comes naturally. Haha! Yabangmuch! Nakakatuwa lang marinig. Yan ang epekto ng pagtatrabaho ng matagal na panahon sa call center, pati kanta apekto ng accent. Haha! Mahilig lang talaga kaming magVideoke ni kaibigang Enzo. Hindi kelangan maging singer para umawit. Kelangan lang kapal ng mukha at kasiyahan..haha! Chos lang! :) :) :) #videoke #carLee Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Pangalawa sa huling araw ko sa dayshift. Mamimiss ko ang ganitong moment - ang matulog sa bahay ng gabi bukod sa weekend. Mamimiss kong umuwi sa gabi kahit mahaba ang pila sa terminal ng jeep at MRT. Mamimiss kong marinig ang katahimikan ng gabi na nakakapagrelax sa pagod kong utak -- naks! Iba pa rin ang lamig ng gabi kesa sa lamig ng aircon. Masarap matulog kapag natural na malamig ang paligid. Higit sa lahat sabay sabay kaming natutulog ng pamilya ko. Pero kahit ano pa man, babalik pa rin ako sa nightshift. Mas maikli ang oras ng byahe at mas nakakasama ko mga babies ko. Di tulad pag day shift, aalis akong tulog sila tapos pag dating ko tulog na sila. At least narasanan ko kahit papano kung pano maging normal na empleyado ng sambayanang Pilipino. #night&day #carLee Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

..Perhaps without realizing it, we have devalued today in favor of an imagined tomorrow that may never come.. Whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men. - Colossians 3:23 God is looking for obedience, not just good intentions. <Prayer> Thank you Lord for reminding us why we call today, a present. Everyday is always the best day to worship you. We should not worry for our tomorrow because in You we are secured. Thank You Father God, for the love and care that we can't compare to anything in this world. Amen Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

All Christians have been gifted By grace from God above, Equipped to build and strengthen The church in faith and love. - Fitzhugh - A church can become a graveyard if its members bury their gifts - Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

"Now I'm almost over you, I've almost shook these blues So when you come back around after painting the town You'll see I'm almost over you You're such a sly one with your cold, cold heart Maybe leavin' came easy, but it tore me apart Time heals all wounds they say and I should know 'Cause it seems like forever, but I'm lettin' you go" -- not emo @ all --- this song is playing in my mind while on training.... lalalalalalala!!!!!!  videoke log (like jet log) hahaha! 

09-03-2012 US Labor Day S.A. Holiday @ Red Box with Janette Duffey Videoke time with our four new members -- Enzo, Momi Norms, Embert. So sad, Leader Alfred and Bern didn't make it. We started at 12:30. We enjoyed the abundance of food and the songs. We are all singers -- good singers. We sang "Total Eclipse of the Heart". What a deadly song. Hahaha! Needed to shout much!  After videoke, Ana, Janette, Kuya Boyet, Enzo and I headed to A-gantea. A cozy tea shop. I had a Tarap Milk tea, yummy. QQ Milk Tea for Enzo and Kuya. It seemed that they enjoyed it. Janette went ahead of us. And since Enzo got his first pay from Concur, so generously treated us at Giligans. I really love their Sisig. They drunk. I just had two bottles of tanduay ice -- no effect. It was like juice.

When I received the ?Our Daily Bread? from Breadcom Church, I promised to read it daily. It really helped to keep bonded with God?s Word every day. I was able to keep on reading it within the first quarter of the year. And now, I had skipped a lot of pages. I feel like I?m slowly walking away from Him. I?ve been skipping church services for several weeks. I had a lot of excuses. I feel very sorry. Although I know, that there?s nothing I can do that would lessen His Love for me, I must still do my part as believer. My task is more than just reading the bible or attending church services. I must live my life way He wants me to. It?s really hard to walk in faith alone. I need to have someone or a group that will walk with me hand and hand. People who would remind when I tend to forget. [My Prayer] Almighty God, you understand my situation more than anybody else. I don?t have a perfect family in the eyes of the world. Saying ?I love you? to my parents is not my thing but you know Lo...

I had relationships where I was looking for acceptance, security and love. But I failed. I might became happy but I didn't experience the long-lasting joy. Not until I received Jesus as my personal Lord and Saviour. His Word, made my bow down to Him. I had realized that this life is not about pleasing people of the world but do what pleases the Lord. I feel being valued with Him. I failed many times, but His Love, His extreme love for me, never changed. When you submit yourself to the Lord, you will experience freedom and joy! Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

That wasn't the first time that I had you in my dream. I was just wonderin' why. I wasn't thinking about you that night. It was just like a normal day but it seemed to be that we had an intimate connection. You were doing that silly thing you always do when I'm around. I don't know why should I even post this here. Hahaha! Funny me! I just don't have someone to tell it to right now and this isn't make any sense to somebody else. Haha! Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I'm too sleepy but my mind doesn't wanna dream yet. My eyes want to rest but it feels that I wanna see you first. I'm so unsure what could it be. Something has changed over a period of time. Its no longer the same routine. I'm glad that this hasn't grown that much. I've proven that it was just a little happiness that I've mistaken into else. #goodNyt.. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Ika-pitong yugto ng pagsasanay tungkol sa paglalakbay. Maaga akong nakarating sa opis. Naabutan ko pa si leader sa sleeping quarters. Siya ay matamlay at malumanay magsalita. Halata ang pagod sa kanyang mga mata. Sinabi niya sa akin ang mga nangyari nung gabi. Medyo madami nga daw syang ginawa. Mukha na syang kiwawa. Pero kaya naman nya eh. Si leader ay isang super hero :) Buti na lang libre ang unli kape sa opis. Hindi ko feel magsiomai kaya wala pa akong almusal. Binili ko sa ministop ang pinakapaborito kong mini cheesebread sa ministop. Kelangan maraming pagkain para hindi tamaan ng antok sa oras ng pagsasanay (training). Samo't saring pagkain ang dala ng mga classmates ko. Many chi-cha to keep us awake.  Napakarami ng impormasyon ang dapat tandaan at pag-aralan. Napalawak ng bagay na pinag-aaralan namin. Kung gustong matuto dapat syento porsyento ng atensyon ay nakatutok sa tagapagsanay namin na hindi nagtatagalog. Ngunit hindi talaga maiiwasan ang antukin at mawaw...

Aug 27 - Heroes' Day Double Pay Training Mode I wore a pair of wedge for change. Mas tumaas ako ng ilang inches. Nag-iba ang lakad ko. Mas marami akong natatanaw, haha! Mas muka akong girl. At mas mahirap maglakad. So much about that wedge. Training pa rin kami. This is our 5th day. We started at 7pm. Sa totoo lang hindi masyadong nagsink-in sa kin ang new sched. Buti na lang holiday at hindi ako natraffic. Sakto lang ang dating ko. As usual, we took a 14-item quiz. Meron pa ring team work. We were trying our best to enjoy the training kaya chat chat lang kami ng mga kalokohan. In fairness magaling si trainer. Nagagawa nyang patandaan sa min ang mga bagay bagay na never heard even once in our lives before. Ang isa pa sa masaya sa training na ito ay ang maraming pagkain sa paligid. Walang lugar ang gutom. Ngunit dahil sapagkat hindi pwedeng lumabas ng room ng madalas we needed to hold our wiwi until the next break. Madalas naman ang CR at yosi break. Almost every hour mero...

    Ang buwis buhay na sapatoss. The 2nd wedge I purchased in my whole life. The first one was gold and I don't know where the heck is that pair right now. But anyway, I decided to wear it today. It feels just fine but not when I need to walk up on very long MRT stairs. I need to use my balancing ability. hahaha! Hindi talaga ako sanay sa mga ganitong kasapatusan. Chuck and sneakers are really my taste. Hays....  Pag upo ko ng station, agad-agad ko syang tinaggal... at mega-Indian sit ako sa upuan ko... hehehe.... at naalala ko na may back-up sapatos ako sa locker ko... yehey!!!! Maayos na ulet ako maglakad. For the mean time doon na muna titira sa locker ko ang wedge na yan.. hehehe!

Buti na lang nakasetup na ang work email ko dito sa mahiwaga kong BB phone. Nababasa ko ng maaga ang email ng mga kliyento at updated agad ako sa mga pangyayari sa opisina. Mas nakakatulong sa akin eto ngayon dahil nasa training ako ang sa bahay pa lang ako alam ko na kung ano ang susunod na quiz. Haha!! Hindi naman eto sa pandaraya, dahil open notes naman ang lahat ng quiz. Mas mabilis ko lang nalaman kung saan hahanapin ang sagot. Sa madaling salita, nakakapag-aral ako.. Hahaha! Ang saya! Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Expect the unexpected is what they always say and what is really happening. When I was younger, I had not foreseen what and where I am right now. I dreamed to be someone and be somewhere. Am I disappointed? I learned and chose not to be. I used to compare my life other's which just made me feel miserable. Instead of making myself busy to see what others have that I don't have, I simply become thankful for I have. God has a purpose for everyone of us. That is the fact. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I merely admire a girl's both inside and outside personality by just sitting with her and talking to her for a very short time. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a lesbian. Knowing her just like that made me think that only stupid man would say No to her. She's just effortlessly pretty. Before meeting her, I've heard few stories bout her that would probably make her broken. The way she talks and she smiles imply that she's strong and happy. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Pinost ko sa FB - "ang tulog sa gabi ay hindi mababayaran ng night diff". Iba pa rin ang tulog sa gabi kung kelan tahimik ang paligid at malamig. Bukod pa dun, tulog din ang ibang tao sa bahay. Sa almost na one month na morning shift ako. Susulitin ko na to. Baka di na maulit eh. Kahit onti lang minsan ang tulog ko basta gabi I feel rested. Ganun pa man, ang jeep pa rin ang 2nd bed ko. Haha! Pag sasakay ako ng jeep mula Antipolo, matutulog lang ako tapos MRT na. In other words, MRT is just a sleep away from Antipolo. Hihi!!!! actually nasa jeep ako ngayon, matutulog na ko pagkapost ko nito :) Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Before I go to sleep tonight, I want to express how grateful I am towards Jesus. He truly transformed me. Real freedom is what I am experiencing. Jesus is the ONLY way! I still glorify HIM in tough times. Those are the opportunities that His making me closer to Him. I may not have the latest gadget nor lot of money, but I have this joy in my heart that never fades because I have a God who never fails. Thank You Lord God for all the blessings! Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I had this game installed in my laptop last year. I got this from my former office mate. Its icon is just sitting there in the desktop for so long. I had played it once but its not a game that I wanna play everyday. Thea accidentally clicked on this icon and played it. She is a fan of angry birds, she really is. But for these past few days, I hadn't heard the birds screaming (weeeeeeeeeeeeee). It was the motor's spinning engine. So there.... Thea is so good at driving this bike using the arrow keys.

And I'm here all alone in the training room with all of the 14 computer units and the AC. I also have my pink bear pen, green notebook, white earphone, and my desktop that has pink theme. I'm just a crazy girl typing anything I want. When I got off the train earlier, my friend waited at the train station. Together, we happily ate siomai. Oh yeah! So I think that's a good start of this day. Never be hungry because Siomai Houses are just around the corner. Big Smile! :)

My life is not perfect but I choose to live seeing the goodness of life. I'm not a girl who has what all men are dreaming of. I don't have a boyfriend but I don't feel alone. I have 2 cute daughters who are my inspirations. I'm a proud single mom. Our family? We don't have an ideal setup. We are most likely living in one house with our lives going separate ways. We are not a typical family. Being in one home is enough for us to be called family. Why am I saying all of these? Well, I also don't know. But not for the sake of just posting something in this blog. I just maybe wanna sleep and all of a sudden, I ended up typing this. This one is for sure -- whatever I am right now, God intended it. I'm not an accident. I started to appreciate life even without a bank account that has millions or billions, when I see life the way Jesus wants me to see it. God owned me, so I won't kill myself following the standard of the world. Sent from ...

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A day ago, on an LRT Station, there was a foreign girl. She's probably twenty y/o or so. She was alone in a corner waiting for the train. After 5 mins the train came so we both got in. I can't help but notice her cry. She kept on crying as if nobody's around. It might a big problem or a shocking news she had that made her cry like that. I don't know! But for some reason, seeing her made feel I a little depressed. We both got off at same train station. I know she went ahead of me. When I was walking upstairs, I saw her at the corner of the footbridge looking at nowhere and she was still crying. If only I could offer my shoulder for her at least be comforted. But who am I to her? I hope what problem she has she will be able to come it to pass. May Lord God embraces and comfort her. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

When you sometimes show too much care to someone, you will tend to be taken for granted. You're giving them freedom to do whatever they want on you. They become careless when it comes to you. They see you as an object and not a person. What I am saying is being too kind is not really good. You still need to leave something for yourself. 

Our travel training officially starts today. And I finally met Michele Stacer. She's cool. She gave us chocolates -- a lot of! Glad to meet USD and Travel Peeps :) Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Sumakay ng MRT papapuntang Taft, sumakay ng LRT at bumaba ng Gil Puyat Station. Naglakad pabalik, mahabang lakad na halos matanaw na ang LRT Station bago ang Gil Puyat. Tumawid ng kalsada. Cartimar - ang sabi sa nakapaskil na sulat. Dun pala yun. Muka lang syang simpleng pamilihan. May Savemore pa nga sa tapat. Wala masyadong tao. Mula sa labas natanaw namin ang mga sapatos na nakadisplay. Pumasok kami sa loob at tumambad sa min ang di mabilang na tindahan ng mga class A na sapatos. Halos nabisita namin ang lahat ng stall pero wala hinahanap kong PONY - isang store lang meron at isang design lang ang meron sila for ladies. Pink and Cream ang kulay. Baby pink pa nga. Maganda sya pero sana may ibang options pa ko. Hays! Sa boys ang medyo may ibang designs. Two pairs of hi-cut converse (blue and pink) for Ana and one pair classic black low-cut for me. Grabe! Nakakatuksong bumili ng marami. Super hindi halatang japeyk. I controlled myself to buy more than one pair. Mahirap na. Masaya na...

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 - First Day at Morning Shift -  Left home at 6:30AM and reached the office at around 8:00AM. That was fast! Because it's holiday!  When I came, I entered the training room and searched for my pc. I was looking for a monitor that has cute stickers around it, 'coz that's mine. But I didn't find it. I went to my workstation and found my cute monitor there. Only our CPUs were moved to the training room. With my kuya boyet, I headed to the training room. We finally found our beloved PCs. We logged in, but there's no internet connection. We decided to go back to production area and used others' computers. Whew! What a waste of time!  So there...Ana came at around 9AM. Kuya and Xander introduced us to the morning folks. Jerome, Kirk, Hanna, Shee, Christine, Hart - I hope I get their names spelled correctly. New set of people :)  Ayun, eto sa gitna ng pakikinig ko nang taong nag-eenglish sa kompyuter naisipan ko lang na isulat to. Mejo nakakapagod na ...

8-19-12 Whatta gloomy Sunday! Hindi umulan pero hindi rin umaraw. I washed my shoes but I doubt that they will dry up. Kung pwede nga lang ipasok sila sa dryer. I also washed my fave hoodies at ginamitan ko sila ng downy passion. Haha! I want them to smell fresh always. We just stayed at home the whole day. Kelangan magtipid tipid din. Marami na namang magbbirthday sa Sept ako ako sa Oct. Okay lang naman kahit wala akong pera sa bday ko. Ayos na sa kin ang siomai ng siomai house na may candle. Hehe!

Unconciously, I stop viewing the profile page of this person. Is that a good news? I don't know. One day, I just noticed myself smiling while seeing those non-sense words posted on someone else's page. For some reason, there's lil thing that triggers me to get to know more this person. I hope I have this magical power that can tell what a person is into by just reading the message he is posting online.

Friday shift hanggang Saturday ng tanghali ay punong puno ng kainan. Siomai sa Master Siomai, Yakisoba, food from Concur, liempo, siomai sa Siomai House, Hotdog sa food stand sa MRT, banana que at buko sa Baclaran, at mabigat na drink sa isang coffee sa Valero sa likod ng PBCom. Thank you Lord sa mga biyayang ito. Busog-much ako... kami pala... kasama ko sa karamihan ng mga kainang ito ay si Ana Moncayo.

I can't really tell if its a yes or a no. Am I trying to control something that naturally happens? Or maybe I'm just over thinking? You're just nothing that turns into something. My sensitivity level probably increases, isn't it? I was not like this before. I'm no longer a kid. Reading between the lines, I know, is not bad but will this assumption just lead me to a wall where I will hit my head at.  <3