True Life

I had relationships where I was looking for acceptance, security and love. But I failed. I might became happy but I didn't experience the long-lasting joy. Not until I received Jesus as my personal Lord and Saviour. His Word, made my bow down to Him. I had realized that this life is not about pleasing people of the world but do what pleases the Lord. I feel being valued with Him. I failed many times, but His Love, His extreme love for me, never changed. When you submit yourself to the Lord, you will experience freedom and joy! Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

That wasn't the first time that I had you in my dream. I was just wonderin' why. I wasn't thinking about you that night. It was just like a normal day but it seemed to be that we had an intimate connection. You were doing that silly thing you always do when I'm around. I don't know why should I even post this here. Hahaha! Funny me! I just don't have someone to tell it to right now and this isn't make any sense to somebody else. Haha! Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I'm too sleepy but my mind doesn't wanna dream yet. My eyes want to rest but it feels that I wanna see you first. I'm so unsure what could it be. Something has changed over a period of time. Its no longer the same routine. I'm glad that this hasn't grown that much. I've proven that it was just a little happiness that I've mistaken into else. #goodNyt.. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Ika-pitong yugto ng pagsasanay tungkol sa paglalakbay. Maaga akong nakarating sa opis. Naabutan ko pa si leader sa sleeping quarters. Siya ay matamlay at malumanay magsalita. Halata ang pagod sa kanyang mga mata. Sinabi niya sa akin ang mga nangyari nung gabi. Medyo madami nga daw syang ginawa. Mukha na syang kiwawa. Pero kaya naman nya eh. Si leader ay isang super hero :) Buti na lang libre ang unli kape sa opis. Hindi ko feel magsiomai kaya wala pa akong almusal. Binili ko sa ministop ang pinakapaborito kong mini cheesebread sa ministop. Kelangan maraming pagkain para hindi tamaan ng antok sa oras ng pagsasanay (training). Samo't saring pagkain ang dala ng mga classmates ko. Many chi-cha to keep us awake.  Napakarami ng impormasyon ang dapat tandaan at pag-aralan. Napalawak ng bagay na pinag-aaralan namin. Kung gustong matuto dapat syento porsyento ng atensyon ay nakatutok sa tagapagsanay namin na hindi nagtatagalog. Ngunit hindi talaga maiiwasan ang antukin at mawaw...

Aug 27 - Heroes' Day Double Pay Training Mode I wore a pair of wedge for change. Mas tumaas ako ng ilang inches. Nag-iba ang lakad ko. Mas marami akong natatanaw, haha! Mas muka akong girl. At mas mahirap maglakad. So much about that wedge. Training pa rin kami. This is our 5th day. We started at 7pm. Sa totoo lang hindi masyadong nagsink-in sa kin ang new sched. Buti na lang holiday at hindi ako natraffic. Sakto lang ang dating ko. As usual, we took a 14-item quiz. Meron pa ring team work. We were trying our best to enjoy the training kaya chat chat lang kami ng mga kalokohan. In fairness magaling si trainer. Nagagawa nyang patandaan sa min ang mga bagay bagay na never heard even once in our lives before. Ang isa pa sa masaya sa training na ito ay ang maraming pagkain sa paligid. Walang lugar ang gutom. Ngunit dahil sapagkat hindi pwedeng lumabas ng room ng madalas we needed to hold our wiwi until the next break. Madalas naman ang CR at yosi break. Almost every hour mero...

    Ang buwis buhay na sapatoss. The 2nd wedge I purchased in my whole life. The first one was gold and I don't know where the heck is that pair right now. But anyway, I decided to wear it today. It feels just fine but not when I need to walk up on very long MRT stairs. I need to use my balancing ability. hahaha! Hindi talaga ako sanay sa mga ganitong kasapatusan. Chuck and sneakers are really my taste. Hays....  Pag upo ko ng station, agad-agad ko syang tinaggal... at mega-Indian sit ako sa upuan ko... hehehe.... at naalala ko na may back-up sapatos ako sa locker ko... yehey!!!! Maayos na ulet ako maglakad. For the mean time doon na muna titira sa locker ko ang wedge na yan.. hehehe!

Buti na lang nakasetup na ang work email ko dito sa mahiwaga kong BB phone. Nababasa ko ng maaga ang email ng mga kliyento at updated agad ako sa mga pangyayari sa opisina. Mas nakakatulong sa akin eto ngayon dahil nasa training ako ang sa bahay pa lang ako alam ko na kung ano ang susunod na quiz. Haha!! Hindi naman eto sa pandaraya, dahil open notes naman ang lahat ng quiz. Mas mabilis ko lang nalaman kung saan hahanapin ang sagot. Sa madaling salita, nakakapag-aral ako.. Hahaha! Ang saya! Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Expect the unexpected is what they always say and what is really happening. When I was younger, I had not foreseen what and where I am right now. I dreamed to be someone and be somewhere. Am I disappointed? I learned and chose not to be. I used to compare my life other's which just made me feel miserable. Instead of making myself busy to see what others have that I don't have, I simply become thankful for I have. God has a purpose for everyone of us. That is the fact. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I merely admire a girl's both inside and outside personality by just sitting with her and talking to her for a very short time. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a lesbian. Knowing her just like that made me think that only stupid man would say No to her. She's just effortlessly pretty. Before meeting her, I've heard few stories bout her that would probably make her broken. The way she talks and she smiles imply that she's strong and happy. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Pinost ko sa FB - "ang tulog sa gabi ay hindi mababayaran ng night diff". Iba pa rin ang tulog sa gabi kung kelan tahimik ang paligid at malamig. Bukod pa dun, tulog din ang ibang tao sa bahay. Sa almost na one month na morning shift ako. Susulitin ko na to. Baka di na maulit eh. Kahit onti lang minsan ang tulog ko basta gabi I feel rested. Ganun pa man, ang jeep pa rin ang 2nd bed ko. Haha! Pag sasakay ako ng jeep mula Antipolo, matutulog lang ako tapos MRT na. In other words, MRT is just a sleep away from Antipolo. Hihi!!!! actually nasa jeep ako ngayon, matutulog na ko pagkapost ko nito :) Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Before I go to sleep tonight, I want to express how grateful I am towards Jesus. He truly transformed me. Real freedom is what I am experiencing. Jesus is the ONLY way! I still glorify HIM in tough times. Those are the opportunities that His making me closer to Him. I may not have the latest gadget nor lot of money, but I have this joy in my heart that never fades because I have a God who never fails. Thank You Lord God for all the blessings! Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I had this game installed in my laptop last year. I got this from my former office mate. Its icon is just sitting there in the desktop for so long. I had played it once but its not a game that I wanna play everyday. Thea accidentally clicked on this icon and played it. She is a fan of angry birds, she really is. But for these past few days, I hadn't heard the birds screaming (weeeeeeeeeeeeee). It was the motor's spinning engine. So there.... Thea is so good at driving this bike using the arrow keys.

And I'm here all alone in the training room with all of the 14 computer units and the AC. I also have my pink bear pen, green notebook, white earphone, and my desktop that has pink theme. I'm just a crazy girl typing anything I want. When I got off the train earlier, my friend waited at the train station. Together, we happily ate siomai. Oh yeah! So I think that's a good start of this day. Never be hungry because Siomai Houses are just around the corner. Big Smile! :)

My life is not perfect but I choose to live seeing the goodness of life. I'm not a girl who has what all men are dreaming of. I don't have a boyfriend but I don't feel alone. I have 2 cute daughters who are my inspirations. I'm a proud single mom. Our family? We don't have an ideal setup. We are most likely living in one house with our lives going separate ways. We are not a typical family. Being in one home is enough for us to be called family. Why am I saying all of these? Well, I also don't know. But not for the sake of just posting something in this blog. I just maybe wanna sleep and all of a sudden, I ended up typing this. This one is for sure -- whatever I am right now, God intended it. I'm not an accident. I started to appreciate life even without a bank account that has millions or billions, when I see life the way Jesus wants me to see it. God owned me, so I won't kill myself following the standard of the world. Sent from ...

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A day ago, on an LRT Station, there was a foreign girl. She's probably twenty y/o or so. She was alone in a corner waiting for the train. After 5 mins the train came so we both got in. I can't help but notice her cry. She kept on crying as if nobody's around. It might a big problem or a shocking news she had that made her cry like that. I don't know! But for some reason, seeing her made feel I a little depressed. We both got off at same train station. I know she went ahead of me. When I was walking upstairs, I saw her at the corner of the footbridge looking at nowhere and she was still crying. If only I could offer my shoulder for her at least be comforted. But who am I to her? I hope what problem she has she will be able to come it to pass. May Lord God embraces and comfort her. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

When you sometimes show too much care to someone, you will tend to be taken for granted. You're giving them freedom to do whatever they want on you. They become careless when it comes to you. They see you as an object and not a person. What I am saying is being too kind is not really good. You still need to leave something for yourself. 

Our travel training officially starts today. And I finally met Michele Stacer. She's cool. She gave us chocolates -- a lot of! Glad to meet USD and Travel Peeps :) Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Sumakay ng MRT papapuntang Taft, sumakay ng LRT at bumaba ng Gil Puyat Station. Naglakad pabalik, mahabang lakad na halos matanaw na ang LRT Station bago ang Gil Puyat. Tumawid ng kalsada. Cartimar - ang sabi sa nakapaskil na sulat. Dun pala yun. Muka lang syang simpleng pamilihan. May Savemore pa nga sa tapat. Wala masyadong tao. Mula sa labas natanaw namin ang mga sapatos na nakadisplay. Pumasok kami sa loob at tumambad sa min ang di mabilang na tindahan ng mga class A na sapatos. Halos nabisita namin ang lahat ng stall pero wala hinahanap kong PONY - isang store lang meron at isang design lang ang meron sila for ladies. Pink and Cream ang kulay. Baby pink pa nga. Maganda sya pero sana may ibang options pa ko. Hays! Sa boys ang medyo may ibang designs. Two pairs of hi-cut converse (blue and pink) for Ana and one pair classic black low-cut for me. Grabe! Nakakatuksong bumili ng marami. Super hindi halatang japeyk. I controlled myself to buy more than one pair. Mahirap na. Masaya na...

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 - First Day at Morning Shift -  Left home at 6:30AM and reached the office at around 8:00AM. That was fast! Because it's holiday!  When I came, I entered the training room and searched for my pc. I was looking for a monitor that has cute stickers around it, 'coz that's mine. But I didn't find it. I went to my workstation and found my cute monitor there. Only our CPUs were moved to the training room. With my kuya boyet, I headed to the training room. We finally found our beloved PCs. We logged in, but there's no internet connection. We decided to go back to production area and used others' computers. Whew! What a waste of time!  So there...Ana came at around 9AM. Kuya and Xander introduced us to the morning folks. Jerome, Kirk, Hanna, Shee, Christine, Hart - I hope I get their names spelled correctly. New set of people :)  Ayun, eto sa gitna ng pakikinig ko nang taong nag-eenglish sa kompyuter naisipan ko lang na isulat to. Mejo nakakapagod na ...

8-19-12 Whatta gloomy Sunday! Hindi umulan pero hindi rin umaraw. I washed my shoes but I doubt that they will dry up. Kung pwede nga lang ipasok sila sa dryer. I also washed my fave hoodies at ginamitan ko sila ng downy passion. Haha! I want them to smell fresh always. We just stayed at home the whole day. Kelangan magtipid tipid din. Marami na namang magbbirthday sa Sept ako ako sa Oct. Okay lang naman kahit wala akong pera sa bday ko. Ayos na sa kin ang siomai ng siomai house na may candle. Hehe!

Unconciously, I stop viewing the profile page of this person. Is that a good news? I don't know. One day, I just noticed myself smiling while seeing those non-sense words posted on someone else's page. For some reason, there's lil thing that triggers me to get to know more this person. I hope I have this magical power that can tell what a person is into by just reading the message he is posting online.

Friday shift hanggang Saturday ng tanghali ay punong puno ng kainan. Siomai sa Master Siomai, Yakisoba, food from Concur, liempo, siomai sa Siomai House, Hotdog sa food stand sa MRT, banana que at buko sa Baclaran, at mabigat na drink sa isang coffee sa Valero sa likod ng PBCom. Thank you Lord sa mga biyayang ito. Busog-much ako... kami pala... kasama ko sa karamihan ng mga kainang ito ay si Ana Moncayo.

I can't really tell if its a yes or a no. Am I trying to control something that naturally happens? Or maybe I'm just over thinking? You're just nothing that turns into something. My sensitivity level probably increases, isn't it? I was not like this before. I'm no longer a kid. Reading between the lines, I know, is not bad but will this assumption just lead me to a wall where I will hit my head at.  <3

Galing sa work. Humiga na ako katabi si Thea. Ako: Thea, umulan ba dito nung wala ako? Thea: Hindi po. Sa labas lang po umulan. Ako: O_o nga naman!  ...isip..isip...may bubong nga naman kami kaya hindi talaga uulan sa loob ng bahay, sa labas lang ng bahay... tomoh!!!

Sa susunod na tatlong linggo ay dayshift kami upang mag-travel training. Sana'y maging maayos ang lahat. Ayaw ko man magdayshift dahil sa hassle ang traffic at siksikan sa MRT, wala naman akong magagawa. Ang training na iyon ay dagdag kaalaman na makakatulong sa pag-unlad ng  Pilipinas, charot lang! Makakasama namin si Kuya Boyet at kaibigang Xander. Yehey! Isa pang maganda dun ay magiging normal ang buhay namin tulad ng ibang mamamayan. Matutulog kami sa gabi.  Pwedeng dumaan ng mall bago umuwi. Makikita na namin ang araw sa bintana ng building. Mas marami ang pwedeng kainan sa third floor ng building. Yahoo! Marami na ang chances kong makakain sa Siomai House. Yun ang d best! August 21 to September 13 Goodbye Night! Hello Daylight! 

Edzen Mangruban Mark Lester Abuyuan  Norma Macabuhay Embert Buclatin They officially joined the company on August 13. The three came from IBM and Embert came from Stream. We are a bigger family now. A total of 10 S.A. in Manila. Y ipee!! ^_^

{Saturday} - i love hoodie jacket - Ana and I took the opportunity to go Landmark after our APE at Patient First. Wala naman talaga akong gusto bilihin. Window shopping lang :) I just remembered that I bought a gray hoodie jacket here last Thursday. Gusto rin ni Ana na bumili so pumunta kami sa Bazaar section kung san nakapwesto ang mga jacket. There were 2 blue and 2 red jackets. Kinuha ni Ana yung isang red at blue, ako kinuha ko yung isang red. We went to fitting room. Maganda ang fit. Bigla kong narealize na gusto ko rin yung blue. We went back sa pwesto nang mga jackets at unfortunately wala na yung blue jacket. Nakita ko syang nasa bisig ng isang ale na nakasuot ng checkered na polo. Sinundan sundan namin sya ni Ana. Nagbabakasakaling bibitawan nya yung jacket na blue. Matagal-tagal rin kaming nagpapanggap ni Ana na tumitingin ng mga ibang damit pero ang totoo nisusundan namin sya. Hindi ko alam kong nahalata nya kami. Pero nawala sya sa paningin namin. Nihanap ko sya sa laha...

One of the recommended Wedding Song  <3someday!

i <3 their music! Jesus rocks! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Casting_crowns Here's my Casting Crown Playlist in Grooveshark -  http://grooveshark.com/#!/playlist/Casting+Crowns/74922892

Aw! Ilang araw din akong walang post ah. Masyado akong busy. Busy sa pag-iisip kung paano ako uuwi. I went to work Monday evening and went home Friday morning. It felt like I did a business trip. LOL! Ana let me stay in their home on Tuesday morning and Concur provided lodging for me, Ana and Bern for 2 days. Sobrang namiss ko ang mga anak ko. I almost cried for not seeing them that long. Wala namang baha sa bahay pero yung dadaanan ko ay mistulang dagat na. 

It's already 2am, 8-8-12. Still the rain is freely pouring outside. I'm thinking there could be a leaked pipe of water there up in the sky. A plumber might just need to get up there and fix it. Oh well, its isn't that easy. We have not control on natural phenomena like this. All we can do is to pray and just wait for it to stop. I hope people in the most affected areas will find temporary shelter tonight especially those are with little kids. I admire those rescuers and volunteers who are fearlessly helping the flood victims. They are real heroes. They are thinking of others more than themselves. May Lord God bless them them more so they can be blessings to others and help more needy.

Tuesday night. Here at Ana's place. Unable to go home due to flood everywhere brought by non-stop raining. As much as i wanna go home, its impossible. I miss my babies so badly. Thank God that we reside in Antipolo so we're safe from flood. And due to this unbearable weather, Malacañang announced to suspend the work in private sectors. They strictly implementing it especially to BPOs and call centers. So glad to receive an SMS fr HR stating that they are complying to government's call.   I was able to sleep at around 2pm. I was maybe sleeping too deep that i didn't notice Ana was longer beside me. The flood was getting higher around their house and their relatives need to get their things upstairs. She was so worried.  I called and messaged some of my friends to check if they were just okay. Thank God that all of  them were safe. I had seen some pictures of the flooded area, on fb and twitter. There was 12 ft deep water somehere in QC. Ayala underpass was filled wi...

October 26, 2012 At Smart Araneta 7PM Artists: Desperation Band, The Katinas, Abandon, Gloryfall, Paglaum I wanna worship Jesus with these guys though I haven't heard most of their songs. I hope I can be with at least one of my friends but I will still go kahit ako lang mag-isa!  Jesus Rocks!! 

Its been raining for almost 2 weeks. Hirap magpatuyo ng mga sinampay. Kakainis magbitbit ng payong pag lalabas. Kelangan pa mag-init ng tubig pag maliligo. Ang mga jeep umoonte kaya ang hirap sumakay. Mga sapatos ko basa na :(  But are my complaints too shallow compare to those who almost lost their shelter due to non-stop raining? I should still be thankful that i can sleep soundly despite the heavy rain. What about those people live nearby rivers and dams, people live along the streets? I mostly feel sorry for those kids who seem to be playing under the rain but are actually homeless. They are trying to enjoy the rain, but when the night comes I can't just imagine where will they sleep and how will they be able to stand the coldness of the night?  Lord God, we want to thank you for the blessings you're always providing to us. May the needy also feel the warm of your love . I know Lord that when they have You, they will have everything they need. We're giving you back...

[Saturday morning sa office] • lunch-laro kasama ang mga sumusunod na tao : Ana, Bern, Farley, Gina at Cathe • update: talo na naman ako ng sa Air Hockey, mandaraya = farley • New: free wifi connection sa S3 ni Cathe na pinalitan nya ng password • Gary: balak tumigil sa pagyoyosi kung may magbabantay daw sa kanya [new project namin ni Ana] =) • nagakaroon ng munting pagpupulong ang SA at isa sa mga issue ang maingay na paligid   akala ako ang maingay, ang paligid din pala... YESSSS!!!!! • highlight of the day: Red and pouty Lips namin ni Ana.. hihihihi! trip lang • music trip: OPM alternative and Christian gospel • ulam ng araw: Sinigang na baboy na pampamilya na naman ang dami • Logo Quiz sa iPad ni Ana: Level 4 na kami dahil sa tulong ng mga connectors. • Ang"Campbell's" ay hindi palaman. • Future Goal: videoke at food trip at Cathe's place (mamayang after shift) :))

When I'm losing the motivation to work I'm trying to remember that things I used to share with my friends when they feel the same. I gotta literally talk to myself or I will try find somebody who is willing to my see my craziness. 

from a FB  tagged by a friend it makes sense! :)

Sometimes its okay to go out of your way and enjoy your life with your friends. See each other and do nothing. Laugh as if your neighbors are not sleeping. Share stories that don't make any sense at all. Shout at each other's face and make no trouble, Eat food until only clean plates left. Throw foul words but don't hurt :D So much fun! #cheerchew

connected sa coffee bean wifi I'm trying to compose a post Pero hindi ko makita ang buong screen sa bb ko. Sayang... hindi pa compatible ata ang blogger a bb Sa may bb blogger app na na rin. Btw thanks Ana for the treat! ;)

"Your past is past. It can't hurt you anymore unless you let it."

Its enough that I had you once. I'll be a fool if I would say that I never enjoyed your company. You brought colors to my life. Yes you did! But happiness here on earth is not really meant to last. It was wrong though it felt so good. As much as we wanted to keep it, it spelled as I-M-P-O-S-S-I-B-L-E. We had to go with our  own lives.  #nakalipas

When we are not getting what we think is best of us, it only means that GOD has something better .