True Life

Woke up so early in the morning and realized that t'was you I was with in that dream. I hope it was real. That feeling that I was laying at your chest and saying your sweet nothings. Our faces that were so close. I just love the way you called my name. I'm happy enough experiencing being taken care by you even t'was just a dream. #kiLig. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Saturday - Rest Day No plans Biglaang ni-contact ang mga dating officemates na sobrang namimiss ko na. Message here, message there. Call here, call there. I know its raining so hard outside, pero dahil walang magawa I guess its the perfect time to see each other again. Probably someone will not able to join, but still I'm so persistent to see even some of them. Nakakamiss talaga sila. Sa tagal ko sa IBM, sila yung mga piling taong napatunayan kong mga tunay na kaibigan. Love them much! :) Yung iba sa kanila, tulog pa pero nigising ko para sumama. :) Lord sana makasama sila...

My I talk, my friends listen. When I throw a joke, they laugh. When I'm wrong, they bother to correct me. When I'm hungry, we eat together. I love my job because of them. #kulet #baliw #kain #juicy Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Nobody knows me more than God does. Nobody understands me the way God does. I'm just so thankful that we have a faithful God. Even I can't literally hear him when we talk, I know He listens and He cares. Nobody could love me the way He loves me. I hope all people in this world would realize who precious they are in eyes of our Great God. During the times when it seems that fate turns upside down, just put your trust to Our Creator. Believe that His in control. Your faith would surely direct you to the right path. When something goes wrong, that doesn't mean that He forgets you. He is just preparing you for something big. He just wants you to hold to no one else but HIM. Love Jesus. Love Others. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I actually don't the word to describe it all. I'm just happy seeing you. You can make me smile now. I can just be like a stone in a corner, not movin and just watching you. I hope I can talk to you just like a friend so close. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I attended the church service last night at Victory Ortigas. I was like 5 minutes late. The worship had started. As what I expected, no more available seats inside the sanctuary. I stood at the back during the worship and I decided to seat on the overflow area. I was really dizzy just like the last Tuesday service. And I was too hungry. I was thinking to skip the service and find something to eat. I felt kinda guilty. I told myself, "Once a week lang naman to eh, titiisin ko to para kay God at tsaka nakakahiya tumayo at umalis". Hehe!  Sometimes evil was trying to destruct you when he knows that you're in the middle of worshiping Lord God. We just need to always put GOD first even before ourselves. Thinking that He gave his only Son for us to have lives. There's nothing we can possibly do to pay what JESUS did for us. Staying hungry for more than an hour is nothing compare to what HE did on the cross.  Pastor Rico talked about tithing and I'm honestly guilty ...

An inspirational song by Jason Mraz. It's not a new song but I just heard it recently. I love the message and the melody. When I get my new baby (guitar), this will be included in my list. When I look into your eyes It's like watching the night sky Or a beautiful sunrise There's so much they hold And just like them old stars I see that you've come so far To be right where you are How old is your soul? I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up And when you're needing your space To do some navigating I'll be here patiently waiting To see what you find 'Cause even the stars they burn Some even fall to the earth We've got a lot to learn God knows we're worth it No, I won't give up I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use ...

Sinusubukan kong wag mangyari yun. Umiiwas lang akong umasa sa wala. Wala namang problema kung gugustuhin. Hindi ko lang masabi kung bakit ako ganoon. Kelangan ko rin ng totoong salita. Kelangan kong maging sigurado. #milddrama Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Moment comes when I have nothing to say. Just letting everything to happen. Got no plans to follow. Trying not to control. Ah basta... that's it pansit! :)

That feeling when a dream seemed to come in reality the day right after the night I dreamed about it. Not even a 0.01 % of chance came into my mind before that a feeling like this will build. It was really a total null that turned into lil something. And this something that would at least brighten my day. Too much belief of enjoyin' this will not get me attached - fail. <3 Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Sometimes its better to stay unspoken than to say what your mind is bursting and regret it later. Getting the fire back is not always good. Take it as much as you can. Stay calm and don't absorb what others say. And just hope that sooner they will realize how stupid they were, throwing bullets at nowhere. Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Ang dami kong ginawa this weekend pero sa bahay lang. Mega-laba ng pants, ang hirap. At dahil umuulan hindi pwedeng hindi ko sila ilalagay sa dryer. Eh may saltik na ang dryer namin. Ayun, nakipagbuyo ba ako sa kanya. Gerbey! After that, bonggang tupi ako ng kabundok na mga damit. From last week na batch pa kasi yung iba. Tapos, nagpaka-nanay ako. Nagpaligo ng dalawang makulit at pinakain sila. Gusto naming mag-mcdo pero anong laban namin sa ulan? Hays! So nanatili kami sa bahay at nilaro lahat ng games sa laptop. Pati ako nakikipagtalo na sa mga bata dahil sa laro. Hindi naman kami makanood ng tv dahil ginagamit nila mama ang tv para sa videoke. Kaya maghapon lang kami sa higaan ng mga chikitings kasama si lappy. Gusto ko rin magsiomai pero wala, nakakatamad talagang lumabas dahil sa ulan. #weekend@home Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I opened my twitter account and the very first tweet I read was:  jesusculture  ‏ @ jesusculture "It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; He will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear...” Deut 31:8  # LivingWords I got my "Our Daily Bread" book and read the message for Sept 12 and it says: ..And from God the Father:"I will never leave you nor forsake you"(Heb. 13:5) --------------------------------- Praise God! God wants us to realize that we're never alone. He is always with us :) "I am with you always, even to the end of the age." (Matt. 20:28)

Serenitea Fort Bonifacio Technology Tower   Serenitea is one of the tea shops introduced to me by friend, Ana. They have lot of branches around the metro like in Ayala Malls, Robinsons Galleria and Greenfield District. Their milk teas and fruit teas are one the bests. I tried their strawberry toffee, Nagasaki Jelly Grass Milk Tea, Okinawa Milk Tea and Cranberry Fruitea. Wow! :) September 13, 2012. Ana and I headed to their newly opened BGC branch to take advantage of their free upsize to jumbo cup promo. We ordered two different flavor each. Each cup contains 1 liter. So we had 2 liters each of cold teas to take.  Cranberry Fruitea and Okinawa Milk Tea Jumbo

Ang pagiging tahimik ng isang tao ay hindi laging kalungkutan ang dahilan. Minsan kailangan din ng oras para sa sarili para sa bagay-bagay na walang makakaunawa kundi ikaw lang. Ang mga bagay na kahit anong gawin mong paliwanag sa iba o sa kaibigan mo ay hindi rin nila maiintindihan. Hindi nila maiintindihan hangga't hindi sila ang nasa mismong sitwasyon mo. Masarap talagang i-share sa kaibigan ang nararamdaman mo, pero kung alam mong lalabas lang sa kabilang tenga nya ang sasabihin mo, maiiging wag na lang.  I pray to HIM and repent for being selfish sometimes and loosing trust to other. The whole world maybe deaf in your struggles but not HIM above. You might not hear HIM responding but He cares.

Sometimes I just wanna be deaf and numb. I just wanna feel and see what reality is giving me. The times when life gives me totally the opposite of what I want. Its an old and an ongoing story of anyone. It doesn't matter when you'd gone the same way before, the feeling would most likely be the same. I would be the same me but I just need to stronger. Life must go on. Nobody can't stop the tick of the clock. I just gotta to take my first step forward. Sometimes life gives me no option. I gotta face what's in there. I can call it a game, a not so fun game. This might not be a pretty part but I know its not the end. Something pretty is ahead. All I need is to bravely walk straight with a solid faith with our God above. Knowing that He's there is more than enough for me to move forward.

I woke up so early today. I usually get up at around 6pm to prepare for work but a loud scream from outside woke me up running downstairs at 4pm. I was wondering who was it and what was going on. I thought it was again a crazy drank man looking for a fight. I immediately went outside to look for my kids. I had traumatic experience with those crazy drank "tam bay" men. My heart was beating so fast. I found Chloe with my mother but not Thea. The screaming man was our neighbour who has brain disorder and I heard that he harmed a person that time. With my heart beating so fast, I walked around our place to see where Thea was. I ended up seeing her infront of a store playing with her cousin. Thank God! I was just so paranoid. And now, I can't close my eyes and go back to sleep. Nagplantsa na lang ako ng checkered kong polo para suotin mamayang pagpasok. :) Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I woke up so early today. I usually get up at around 6pm to prepare for work but a loud scream from outside woke me up running downstairs at 4pm. I was wondering who was it and what was going on. I thought it was again a crazy drank man looking for a fight. I immediately went outside to look for my kids. I had traumatic experience with those crazy drank "tam bay" men. My heart was beating so fast. I found Chloe with my mother but not Thea. The screaming man was our neighbour who has brain disorder and I heard that he harmed a person that time. With my heart beating so fast, I walked around our place to see where Thea was. I ended up seeing her infront of a store playing with her cousin. Thank God! I was just so paranoid. And now, I can't close my eyes and go back to sleep. Nagplantsa na lang ako ng checkered kong polo para suotin mamayang pagpasok. :) Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Masaya ako dahil sa wakas naka-attend na ulit ako ng church service kagabi sa Victory Ortigas. I missed the first weeks of the series "Ikaw, Ako, Tayo". The message focused on how we can take part of building our nation. The book of Nehemiah was used. Nakaka-amaze talaga kung pano magpreach ang mga pastor don. Ang daming jokes pero totoong nangyayari. Nakaka-inspire yung mga stories they shared. The way pastor delivered the message was so effective and easy to understand and really reached the hearts of the people. I can tell how Jesus works in their lives. They are having the same struggles most people are experiencing. The only difference is they are facing those with solid faith with God. They are the living testimony of what can do in one's life and they are dedicating their lives by sharing Jesus to everyone. God bless!! Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

9-11 notes - twin tower terrorist attack - 2nd birthday of my lappy - 2nd town hall of Concur Philippines - back to night shift after 3 weeks of training Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

I hate this when I get too sensitive with what people say. It's normal, yes! I just don't like it when I become too much affected of what they say. I often just ignore them, and do what I gotta do. I usually forgive and forget. Even I know that they don't mean to hurt me, there's still a little percentage that they make me hate them. So, I better stop and breath for seconds. I have to hold my emotions and avoid bad results. #justNothing Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Kung iisa-isahin ko ang mga bagay na dapat kong ipagpasalaamat kay Lord, kulang ang buong buhay ko para sabihin lahat. Hindi man ako ang pinakamayamang tao sa buong mundo, pero isa ako sa pinakamasaya. Napagtanto ko at ilang beses ko na ring nasabi na ang pagiging masaya ay hindi pagkakaroon ng mga bagay na inaasam mo ngunit ang maging mapagpasalamat sa mga bagay na pinagkaloob sayo ng Diyos. Nagpag-isip-isip ko din na hindi pala dapat ako nagkukumpara ng sarili ko sa iba. Sinadya ng Diyos na tayo ay magkakaiba. Ginawa nya tayong Unique. Walang sinuman sa mundo ang magkatulad ang buong pagkatao. Dati, ang dami kong gustong gawin, mga bagay na gusto kong magkaroon at mga lugar na gusto kong puntahan. Sa isang banda, nakatulong ang mga yon para mag-aral akong mabuti at magsumikap na humanap ng magandang trabaho. Pero, noong nakilala ko si Lord, parang ang naging tangi kong gusto ko sa buhay ko ay ang makilala sya at mamuhay sa kung ano ang gusto nya sa kin. Magmula noon natuto akong ...

Sabi ko nga, kung ang ugali ng tao ang pagbabasehan ko kung pano ko sila tatratuhin ay baka wala na kong maging kaibigan. Hangga't kaya kong intindihin at palampasahin, kakayanin ko. At nagpapasalamat din ako sa mga kaibigan kong nagtatyaga at umiintindi ng pagkatao ko. Alam ko hindi ako perpekto at hindi ako santo kaya alam ko na may mga tao rin sa paligid ko na hindi ako gusto. Ngunit hindi naman iyon magiging dahilan para hindi ako maging masaya. Sa ingay kong to, minsan pinipili ko na lang tumahimik kaysa magreact lalo kung alam kong wala naman akong sasabihing maganda. Kahit masiyahin ako, tao pa rin akong limitado at may emosyon. May kahinaan rin ako. Ang buhay hindi puro joke. Maraming bagay ang hindi ko alam. May mga usapang hindi ako nakakarelate. Pero may kakilala akong alam kong mahal ako ng buong buo. Siya ang lubos na nakakakilala at nakakaunawa sa kin nang isang daang porsyento. He is the Lord, our God. He always remind me to love other the way I love myself. ...

Maraming tao ang nahihilig sa pagbabasa ng mga series book. Ewan ko ba sa sarili ko kung hindi ako isa sa kanila. Wala lang siguro akong tiyaga. Hindi naman akong tamad na tao, pero hindi ko lang siguro feel. I don't have anything against to those readers. I actually admire them for being patient readers. Yung iba kong kaibigan minsan nakukumbinsi akong magbasa, tulad nung "hunger games" pero isang chapter pa lang, tinamad na akong ituloy. Haha! Pag nababaling akong atensyon ko sa ibang bagay, wala nang lugar ang pagbabasa sa kin. Ang totoo nyan, nakuha ko pang basahin ang Twilight dati,meron akong pdf copy. Eh ayun..hindi ko rin natapos. I told myself once, siguro tyatyagain kong basahin ang series books na yun kapag natapos ko nang basahin ang Bible. I may sound so hypocrite pero yun eh akin lang. Nakasubscribe nga ko sa isang daily bible reading email. Kung tutuusin ay maikli lang yun, pero minsan ay nakakaligtaan ko pang basahin. Kelangan ko lang ng onti pang co...

Saturday, September 08, 2012     "Many of the people scolded him and told him to be quiet. But he shouted even more loudly, 'Son of David, have mercy on me!'" (Mark 10:48 GN) If you're going to make a fresh start with faith in your life, you have to face your fears. Don't let them control you! Fear has an incredible ability to paralyze our potential, to keep us from launching out, to keep us from having faith in our lives. When we choose fear over faith, it makes us skeptical — we're afraid of trying anything new when we're afraid. It makes us selfish — we're afraid to commit to God and to others. It makes us short sighted — we focus on the past and not on the future. Bartimaeus faced a fear that is familiar to many of us — the fear of rejection. He knew that to shout out at Jesus in that crowd wasn't the right thing to do. He knew that people would look down on him for it, but he was desperate. And he knew that Jesus ...

Place: serenitea greenfield Time: gabi na With: nobody Mode: Kinda emo Dear Someone, I thought you're slowly getting me into you. Hays...why am I so like this? Do I miss being into a relationship? I guess this is just an insanity going on when I'm tired and alone. haha! Maybe I'm just longing for someone who would tell his comforting words when I'm wasted. Someone that would make me smile that easy. <BGMUSiC=One Last Cry> #emo-daw Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Bigla ko lang naalala. Gusto ko lang itala sa online notebook na ito. Noong nag-videoke kaming mga S.A. kasama si Janette sa Redbox, sabi nya sa kin "You sound like an American when you sing" at ang sabi nya kay Enzo, "You sound like a British". Oh well! It comes naturally. Haha! Yabangmuch! Nakakatuwa lang marinig. Yan ang epekto ng pagtatrabaho ng matagal na panahon sa call center, pati kanta apekto ng accent. Haha! Mahilig lang talaga kaming magVideoke ni kaibigang Enzo. Hindi kelangan maging singer para umawit. Kelangan lang kapal ng mukha at kasiyahan..haha! Chos lang! :) :) :) #videoke #carLee Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

Pangalawa sa huling araw ko sa dayshift. Mamimiss ko ang ganitong moment - ang matulog sa bahay ng gabi bukod sa weekend. Mamimiss kong umuwi sa gabi kahit mahaba ang pila sa terminal ng jeep at MRT. Mamimiss kong marinig ang katahimikan ng gabi na nakakapagrelax sa pagod kong utak -- naks! Iba pa rin ang lamig ng gabi kesa sa lamig ng aircon. Masarap matulog kapag natural na malamig ang paligid. Higit sa lahat sabay sabay kaming natutulog ng pamilya ko. Pero kahit ano pa man, babalik pa rin ako sa nightshift. Mas maikli ang oras ng byahe at mas nakakasama ko mga babies ko. Di tulad pag day shift, aalis akong tulog sila tapos pag dating ko tulog na sila. At least narasanan ko kahit papano kung pano maging normal na empleyado ng sambayanang Pilipino. #night&day #carLee Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

..Perhaps without realizing it, we have devalued today in favor of an imagined tomorrow that may never come.. Whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men. - Colossians 3:23 God is looking for obedience, not just good intentions. <Prayer> Thank you Lord for reminding us why we call today, a present. Everyday is always the best day to worship you. We should not worry for our tomorrow because in You we are secured. Thank You Father God, for the love and care that we can't compare to anything in this world. Amen Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

All Christians have been gifted By grace from God above, Equipped to build and strengthen The church in faith and love. - Fitzhugh - A church can become a graveyard if its members bury their gifts - Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld

"Now I'm almost over you, I've almost shook these blues So when you come back around after painting the town You'll see I'm almost over you You're such a sly one with your cold, cold heart Maybe leavin' came easy, but it tore me apart Time heals all wounds they say and I should know 'Cause it seems like forever, but I'm lettin' you go" -- not emo @ all --- this song is playing in my mind while on training.... lalalalalalala!!!!!!  videoke log (like jet log) hahaha! 

09-03-2012 US Labor Day S.A. Holiday @ Red Box with Janette Duffey Videoke time with our four new members -- Enzo, Momi Norms, Embert. So sad, Leader Alfred and Bern didn't make it. We started at 12:30. We enjoyed the abundance of food and the songs. We are all singers -- good singers. We sang "Total Eclipse of the Heart". What a deadly song. Hahaha! Needed to shout much!  After videoke, Ana, Janette, Kuya Boyet, Enzo and I headed to A-gantea. A cozy tea shop. I had a Tarap Milk tea, yummy. QQ Milk Tea for Enzo and Kuya. It seemed that they enjoyed it. Janette went ahead of us. And since Enzo got his first pay from Concur, so generously treated us at Giligans. I really love their Sisig. They drunk. I just had two bottles of tanduay ice -- no effect. It was like juice.

When I received the ?Our Daily Bread? from Breadcom Church, I promised to read it daily. It really helped to keep bonded with God?s Word every day. I was able to keep on reading it within the first quarter of the year. And now, I had skipped a lot of pages. I feel like I?m slowly walking away from Him. I?ve been skipping church services for several weeks. I had a lot of excuses. I feel very sorry. Although I know, that there?s nothing I can do that would lessen His Love for me, I must still do my part as believer. My task is more than just reading the bible or attending church services. I must live my life way He wants me to. It?s really hard to walk in faith alone. I need to have someone or a group that will walk with me hand and hand. People who would remind when I tend to forget. [My Prayer] Almighty God, you understand my situation more than anybody else. I don?t have a perfect family in the eyes of the world. Saying ?I love you? to my parents is not my thing but you know Lo...